Now that I have your attention, let’s talk about the adversary, Lucifer, Beelzebub, Satan, the father of lies, etc. Yeah, you know, that guy. Why do I want to talk about him? Because he is so crafty. He is so ingenious, he is very smart, and he is very sophisticated. People might think of him like some horned devil breathing fire with a pitch fork, but that isn’t him at all is it? Satan is you, he is me, he is everyone everywhere in the world. What do I mean by that? I mean he can literally infiltrate anyone. Yes, anyone! Scary right? Well, why don’t we just punch him in the face and kick him out then. Well, that would be fun and rewarding, however, how do you even know when he is there? I mean literally, the way I see it is he knows us as well as we know ourselves. So, he can mimic us. By that I mean he is so good at infiltrating your thoughts that you actually think the thoughts are yours and not his.
I’ve recently, and by recent I mean this morning, had the epiphany that my thoughts haven’t necessarily been my own. I will tell you that this blog had a lot to do with this epiphany, as well as a dear friend of mine who has recently indulged me in critiquing my blog. Through a series of conversations and emails, I actually saw it. The power of writing is very powerful, because you can go back and re read what you’ve written and sometimes it is like, wait what? What did I mean by that? Why did I say it like that? or even “what was I thinking?” So because I have had the opportunity to re read and reflect on my ideas and personal philosophies, I found a flaw. I know, me, a flaw in my own logic and thinking! or was it really mine? This is where Satan comes in. Were all of those thoughts really mine? Did I actually plagiarize Satan? Or did he plagiarize me? Maddening right?
So here comes the gritty part, I started reflecting on a lot of decisions I had made over the past few years and realized I wasn’t necessarily behind the wheel. Instead of singing “Jesus take the wheel” I think it was more like “Satan take the Wheel”. I think I had allowed Satan to take the wheel in my life and he was driving it full force. He was making the decisions from then on out. Now, I’m not saying that I wasn’t making any decisions. I think sometimes he’d fall asleep at the wheel and I would grab it so we would fall off a cliff. But then, for some unknown reason I’d say okay, this car is going nowhere, here you go Satan, your turn. I think this has happened several times in my life and I finally realized why. It’s because Satan is me and I am him and we are one (so to speak) I think he set up residence in my mind a long time ago and he knows very well how my mind works. He knows what strings to pull and when and he knows how to think like me so when he applies reason to my ideas, they sound like my ideas and my thoughts.
Now, I’m not trying to give the old “the devil made me do it” line where I escape accountability for my actions by throwing Satan under the bus. No, not at all, in fact, I’m saying it’s my fault he has so much control in the first place. At some point I let him in and he is one tenant that is hard to evict. Man he is evading the constable like the plague. The fact is we all have weaknesses and we all fall for those same weaknesses consistently. I’m reminded of my favorite scripture which is Ether 12:27: “And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them.”
Great, so that’s awesome! God gave men weakness so that they will be humble. I love the thought that his grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before him. That’s great, so I’ve humbled myself and my weakness is that I consistently let Satan drive the bus. Awesome! So the scripture says if I humble myself before him and have faith in him, then he will make weak things strong unto them. So that’s where it says, okay, if your weakness is that Satan convinces you to let him drive the bus, how are you going to make me strong to evict Satan and not let him drive the bus anymore? Boom! Have faith and be humble. Admit you are wrong and that you don’t have control and ask God for help! Or, accept the life line he has already sent you (cause chances are he has sent you several already). Grab that life line and then punch Satan in the face and throw him out of the bus!
Okay, okay, I admit that all sounds much easier said than done. I know, because Satan is still driving my bus to a certain extent. But not for long. I just have to find my boxing gloves!